Ponderings

When in a Season of Almost

Have you ever gone through a season of “almosts”? Those times when when you’re praying for guidance, you’re seeking the Lord and feel at peace with moving forward in one direction, things are lining up and then……nothing. The job promotion, the college application, the book idea, the adoption, the fundraiser, the relationship, the whatever-it-is (you can fill in the blank) goes no where. It can be something huge or it can be something small, but it doesn’t change the fact that at first, it’s deflating.

I don’t question God’s faithfulness or goodness in these times, because I know He is good (He’s done more than I’ll ever deserve already!). But I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that these times can be trying and frustrating. I wonder why did everything have to line up so “perfectly” (meaning my heart gets involved) to only have things not pan out? Was it once again about “the journey”? And trust me, that is asked grudgingly. What if I just want to have the end result and be done with it? Have you ever experienced that?

This was from one of my runs and it’s amazing how rays of sunshine can be so encouraging! Also, can we take a moment to check out the beginning of that hill I have to defeat with every training run?

So I’ve been asking myself, what’s the point?

Wait for the Lord; Be strong and let your heart take courage; yes, wait for the Lord. Psalm 27:14

The easy answer is this proves there’s plenty of room for growth when it comes to my spiritual life ;). I so quickly want to see the end result, that I want to skip right over the middle. Yet, as much as I can sometimes complain about the journey – I’ve been reminded recently of how important that journey is. Yes, there are lessons to be learned, but more importantly, for myself, it’s in times like these (deflated, frustrated, etc) where I have to seek the Lord more than I would have if it all panned out like I thought it was going to.

And that is what’s important.

I believe God is continuing to refine me (and that will be a life long process for sure!). Sometimes those end results come quickly, sometimes they stretch years, but as stubborn and baby-of-the-family I can so often be, the Lord is showing me He isn’t done, He’s preparing me for things far beyond my expectations. And I can’t wait to see!

So while I sometimes get sassy frass in my patience, I know He is still there and won’t give up on a girl like me, who as you can see from the following photo, has always been the epitome of meek and one who listens the first time around. Typing that makes me chuckle. Bless my parents.

Circa late 80s

Have you been there? What were some encouraging scripture and advice that helped you? I’d love to hear your thoughts!

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Ponderings

Friends and Friends Forever….

Tomorrow night I get to see my favorite band of ALL TIME in concert. Seriously, NEEDTOBREATHE is an incredible band and if you haven’t listened to their music, dear friends, stop reading and LISTEN!

Anyway, one of my favorite songs from their latest album is “Brother.” Two of the band members are brothers, and I love the lyrics and I think they are relevant just as much to family as they are to friendship. Here’s a snippet:

Brother let me be your shelter
I’ll never leave you all alone
I can be the one you call
When you’re low
Brother let me be your fortress
When the night winds are driving on
Be the one to light the way
Bring you home

I’ve been thinking about friendship often this year and I’ve been reminded quite often it’s value (not that I ever doubted!). From this song, to sermons, to reading books about friendships, I wanted to take a moment on this blog to simply remind myself (and maybe even you dear reader) how much we, as breathing and living humans, need friendship in our lives.

When I think of my girlfriends, first, I laugh, thinking of all the hilarity throughout the years and then I get really cheesy and maybe even tear up thinking about what they’ve meant and continue to mean in my life.

They’re the Hobbits you’d want with you to destroy the ring, the ones who will meet up for Happy Hour because you need to hash out the latest boy drama, or it was a long work week or you just want to enjoy Happy Hour and laugh. They’re the women who will go grab significant amounts of chocolate without being asked, the women who will change their plans to meet you at Chick-fil-A, the women who will get excited for the new adventures in your life and cry with you when your heart is broken (the stuff beyond boys).

They’re the women who I know I can send something funny no matter how inappropriate and I know they’ll laugh and still be my friend. They’re the women who will encourage me in my faith, who will pray for me and will always be there.

Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. (Colossians 3:12-14 NIV)

As C.S. Lewis said in The Four Loves, “Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art…. It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things which give value to survival.”

As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another. (Proverbs 27:17 NIV)

You never know where you’ll meet them, whether playing dodge ball during 5th grade P.E. or in a new state. They may be at different life stages when you meet, they’ll do things differently and probably even view things a bit differently than you do, they may live thousands of miles away or twenty minutes away, but the thing I’ve learned is that God is faithful in bringing friends into your life that you need.

I could post a collage of pictures, but that might overwhelm y’all ;), so I’ll go with one picture of my best friend and I (since the previously mentioned dodge ball match in 5th grade :). I am so thankful for her in my life and proof that living states apart doesn’t have to change a friendship!

Don’t be a Lone Ranger friends. There is too much beauty in friendship to go at life alone. 🙂

What about you? How have friendships shaped your life?

P.S. Five internet high fives if you know the title reference 🙂